Emotions and college

Emotions tend to be the most annoying thing in the world sometimes. I’m friends with a guy on my floor and in the beginning of the year; we hung out and spent a lot of time together as friends. It was fun just chilling, then feelings started to emerge. Of course, how else are you suppose to feel when you spend almost every day with this one person who’s your good friend and just makes you laugh all the time (and not to mention how cute he his). My roommate would joke around and say (and this was said last semester so in maybe November) by mid next semester that he and I would be dating. I just laughed and said no way. Funny thing is, in one week we spent almost every meal together, it was fun because he made me laugh, even though he is really quiet. Some weekends when his roommate would head for home, he would ask me if I wanted to have a sleepover and just bunk in his roommate’s bed I was like why not? Nothing was going to happen because he knew I had a boyfriend and I can tell he didn’t want to ruin that. Pulse there were separate beds. Funny part was I woke up at nine and he didn’t wake up till eleven. It was pretty chill actually. Eventually people on our floor would ask, are we dating yet, or are we together yet. It was a bit awkward because, well I guess we didn’t see each other dating. I have a boyfriend back in my home town. We’ve been dating for about 19 months already. I love him to death, I just don’t like being far away from him and not seeing him for an extended period of time. And when you have a really awesome guy friend here that you spend a lot of time with, it gets confusing. I felt like I’ve gotten nudges that he likes me but I keep on saying “no I will not like him back” in the affection way and i keep telling myself that he doesn't like me that way. I care for him all the time because friends care for each other. The sucky part is that some nights when I’ve heard that he hung out with other people and some girls were in the group, I got a bit jealous. Really, really stupid reason to get jealous. I guess because of that I’m afraid I won’t just get to hang with him anymore. Then I just keep telling myself, that nothing will ever happen, that he is just a really good friend, and that I have a loving boyfriend, who I sometimes get to see. But if I wasn’t dating my boyfriend and we split before college, then I met this guy on my floor, and he asked me to date him, I probably would. Does that make me a bad person?

ENG 101 at ISU

So far in ENG, I feel it’s really different from other English classes I’ve taken. Obviously because this is college, it’s completely different from high school. It’s just when I think of English I think of long essays, reading assignments that we have like fifteen questions to answer in the end. Plus those lovely tests about books and grammar. It’s definitely not what I expected it to be. I’m not saying it’s easier, but I feel there is a lot less to do compare to high school English. Plus all the reading that isn’t assigned is quiet nice. I remember in my English class we wouldn’t have so many peer reviews, we ourselves were our peer review, so I like how we have others look over our work. It really helps on what needs to be fixed to make the paper better. In high school we would only get, what felt like, a couple of days until a huge research paper is due. Here it feels more spaced out and more time is given. I really like the use of the computers to save all the work, plus with the way we are saving our work, it helps me title my future work so it’s easier to find. One thing I do want to learn a bit about is the different types of papers and their different set ups. I always get stuck on how to set up a good paper, or what to choose to tell my audience. When I get a topic I want to tell everyone about everything about the topic but need to pick out only the important details. How do you choose what you think is important compared to what your audience thinks is important. I guess that’s the hard part of English, getting the audience involved and interested. That’s another thing, different techniques used to get the audience wanting to read more and more of a research paper, or informative paper.

Body language

So in bio of last week, we started to learn more about behavior and body language. I always knew about it but never really payed attention to it because every little movement could mean something so I was just like, ok this is cool but it’s so nitpicky. But now I wish I knew more about it, so I can somewhat read people better. I know my boyfriend is really into this stuff and he can read me like a book, and I just know what he’s thinking because I just know how he acts. I looked over it all and I was like wow that means that, and we humans just do it out of free will. We subconsciously think of this stuff, and our body just acts it out without us even knowing it. It’s a bit creepy, but really awesome to think about. If you think about it, our bodies already do so much for us automatically, and now it’s even showing our emotional physically. Thank God a lot of people may not know too much detail about body language or else, life would just be no fun, if you think about it. If everyone knew body language signs, then everyone could read each other, there would be no secret admirers, or no need for court actually, because you would be able to tell if someone did the crime or not. Ok maybe not that dramatic, but life would just be a full on open book, with everyone’s emotions handed to one another. Also, if we all did know more about body language, I mean to every last little detail, we would have much better liars too. That would be chaotic, if everyone was amazing at lying then our world would be a lie. Interesting to see how one topic, if known a lot, could possible mess up our world.